jueves, abril 05, 2007

To Boddah


To Boddah

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, the ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we're backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddy Mercury, who seem to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd, which is somehting I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know! I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miseraable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody, baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out then to fade away. Peace, Love, Empathy. Kurt Cobain.

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your altar

Please keep going Courtney,

for Frances.

for her life will be so much happier

without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU

Asi es, creo que se imaginaron bien. Hoy se cumplen 13 años de la muerte de Kurt Cobain, pero es verdad que se suicidó? Yo digo que no. Es demasiado raro que después de haber dicho que se iba a divorciar, se hagan compras de su tarjeta de crédito, etc. No quiero poner mas cosas acerca de tooodo el misticismo y rarezas alrededor de la muerte o "suicidio" de Cobain.

Han pasado 13 años sin Cobain y no se sabe que hubiera pasado si no hubiera muerto. Nirvana seguiría unido? Eso nadie lo sabrá. Pero que grandes años y grandes rolas nos dieron en su tiempo de vida. El disco de Nevermind ha vendido mas discos después de muerto Cobain que cuando estuvo en vida, pero aun así rompió records de venta.

Courtney ha tratado de limpiar su imagen y acaba de sacar un libro con imágenes inéditas. Pero que se propone, porque quiere hacer eso si la mayoría de personas saben que es muy improbable que en ese tiempo se haya suicidado...además que muerto se quita los guantes después de pegarse un tiro.

Algo a petición, que se ira poniendo varios dias sobre la vida de este ilustre personaje, o al menos para mi, de este ilustre personaje, símbolo de la generación Y.

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not."
Kurt Cobain

Arriba y adelante!!!

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